A collection of lessons and reflections from my journey. This blog is where I write the thoughts I don’t say out loud. It’s a space for honest exploration, the kind that doesn’t always lead to answers. Some entries are spiritual, others personal, some raw and unfinished. But each one is part of the rebuild, a way to process pain, seek clarity, and stay present with the work. I post regularly, so feel free to bookmark this page and check back for new reflections.
By the Chargers at Dawn
As the final embers of 2025 cool and the first breath of 2026 gathers beyond the horizon, I feel compelled to leave something at this threshold. A reckoning, and an invitation. This past year has been a road of misjudgments and awakenings, of effort misplaced and moments that quietly worked. I wanted to offer a…
Battles of the Soul: A warrior’s inner pilgrimage
For a long time I wanted to write about the nafs (the Self / the Soul) and the endless struggle it wages. I imagined I could study its inner workings understand its mechanisms and devise a strategy to defeat it. But I quickly found myself lost. Its arsenal was vast beyond comprehension. Every time I…
Qom Then and Now: Reflections from a Returning Student
It had been over sixteen years since I last walked these streets. The moment I set foot in Qom again, a wave of memory rose like a tide and broke within me. The city felt both familiar and foreign. I recognized it, yet it no longer recognized me. The narrow alleys I once knew had…
From Football to Faith: The Humble Origins of Hezbollah
I want to share a story I first heard when I was in Qom. It was not something I found in books, nor did I see it documented in formal biographies or academic papers that I could cross-check. It lived instead in the whispers of seminaries, in the lessons of teachers who spoke with fire…
The Untier of Knots: A Story I Found Myself In
I want to share a story. But first, let me tell you why. Because sometimes, clarity doesn’t arrive with answers. It comes wrapped in confusion. In silence. In strange turns of fate that make no sense at the time, until one day, they do. This is more than a story I once read. It became…
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Yasir Abbas 